Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Missing you.. so very much..
I miss you so much now.. Right now.. I know
we’ve had many disagreements, all the more so while I have been growing
older and dumber, but now that I’m away from you, I miss you so, so
much.. Maa, I miss the loving caress of your hands in my hair when I
cannot sleep.. I miss you so much.. I miss you scolding me, I miss your
childish simplicity and innocence.. Baba, I miss your honesty, your
experienced and wise way of looking at things, your acceptance of the
inevitable.. I am so, so sorry for not being able to be the son you both
deserve, for not being even able to come close.. I will try very hard
from right now, that I promise.. From this very moment.. till the day I
wake up no more.. THAT I promise to you…
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Lost-and-Found
I
sometimes wish we had a Lost-and-Found box. You know, one where we
could go and look for things that we have lost along this path of life.
We lose so many things - books, pens and pencils, erasers, plastic
rulers, personal diaries, storybooks (that we never
wanted to lose), bills and memos, important (but hard to keep track of)
documents, CDs and DVDs, keys, friends who have inexplicably turned
strangers, loved ones who may not be so anymore, our relationships, our
identities and sometimes even ourselves. Surely, it would have been
rather nice to have had a place to go search for such things..
Thursday, March 25, 2010
A promise made to myself
The movie “Slumdog
Millionaire” should be used as a pill that awakens Indians to the
plight of street-children. We shouldn’t denounce it by saying that it
showcases only the dark side of India; if anything, we should
acknowledge it as the fact of what happens in India today, and then try
to do away with such evils. On my journey back to Kolkata from Pune on
board the Azad-Hind Express, there was this little girl with a pink
shirt and a black frock who was performing little tricks with a large
iron ring draped around her thin shoulders. Then she approached each
passenger with a bowl, begging for alms. As I dropped some coins into
the bowl, I patted her on the head and whispered to myself that she
didn’t deserve this. I don’t know what she made of my gesture but she
gave me a smile that was so sad that I had to bite my tongue to hold
back the tears. We’ve got it all wrong, I felt. Everything. We need a complete overhaul of the Indian scenario. And we need it now.
I may not remember everything that took place on my trip to Pune, but the little girl’s smile (and the world of sadness in it) will always be a part of me. And I promise to do something about it.
I may not remember everything that took place on my trip to Pune, but the little girl’s smile (and the world of sadness in it) will always be a part of me. And I promise to do something about it.
How cruel can we be?
How low can we sink? How cruel can we be? I learned recently that the spiny tailed lizard or ‘sanda’ (Scientific name – Uromastyx hardwickii); found primarily in UP, Rajasthan, Gujarat and Pakistan, is boiled alive
in oil because it’s fat is said to have medicinal value. And no, it
doesn’t end there. In order to prevent these tiny creatures (the males
grow up to 415 mm and the females grow up to 375 mm) from escaping from
their ordeal in the boiling oil, they are often starved for a number of
days and their backs are broken. This is the 21st century? This
is where parts of our country stand? It’s said that a chain is only as
strong as its weakest link. Tell me, of what use is an increasing GDP or
a rise in standards of living if we cannot instill in our brethren the
thing that makes man the highest of all living beings? Who is a human if
he is not humane?
... because we are not the only ones who live on Planet Earth
The skins of
Indian crocodiles (marsh, salt-water and gharials), lizards (all types)
and snakes (all types) are regularly used in the manufacture of wallets,
ladies’ bags, hunting boots and other footwear, belts, straps of
wrist-watches, sandals, briefcases, patches on leather garments (like
jackets, skirts and pants) and other ‘fashion items’. Most of the
species being slaughtered mercilessly for nothing other than our
personal needs are on the endangered list in India. It’s high time all
of us take collective responsibility to protect our wildlife. I do not
use any leather products and I urge all of you to do the same. Please
remember, “If the buying stops, the killing can too…”
Saturday, March 13, 2010
So what?
Of course human beings are civilized! Humans sport Peter England, John
Mills, Raymonds and United Colors of Benetton, do they not? They cannot
get enough of AXE and PLAYBOY; they indulge in manicures and pedicures.
They watch TV, play music on iPods, drink water cooled in a refrigerator
and shoot down enemy soldiers on a PlayStation. Heck, it is they who
make the world go around! Of course humans are civilized! So what if
they spit out the window of a bus in motion, without sparing a thought
for the pedestrians? So what if they tend to their teeth with a
toothpick after a wholesome meal and, on recovering pieces of unchewed
food, throw them wherever they feel like? So what if they chop off the
heads of live poultry and then hold them by their wings to watch the
beheaded birds convulse to death? So what if they cheer on lustily,
baying for blood, as farm animals are offered as sacrifices to appease a
'goddess'? So what if their hot topic of discussion the day after the
worship of the said 'goddess' is whether or not the executioner managed
to severe the head of he sacrificial animal with one clean blow? Humans
are the torch-bearers of civilization, aren't they? Of course they're
civilized then!
Thursday, March 04, 2010
... ?
My mother was telling me today morning that I should try for
something else next year and not retake the management exams (provided,
of course, that I fail to convert any of my three remaining Interview
calls). She feels that I'm like a cheetah; that I can cover a fair bit
of distance rather quickly but I lack the ability to sustain that pace
for longer periods of time. (Well, I thought to myself, atleast someone
has found something similar between my favourite animal and me!)
My
first-choice subject (after the ordeal of graduating with Economics
Honours) was Journalism and/or Mass Commuinication. I wasn't allowed to
sit for any of the relevant entrance exams because my parents felt that
"it's a very uncertain future" (I tried making them understand that
life itself is very uncertain, but it didn't quite work).
So I decided to give MBA a shot. Now, I'm being advised to try something else..
"Two
roads diverged in a wood, and I..." Unfortunately, that's where the
buck stops. I don't yet know which road is mine to take...
Sunday, February 28, 2010
And the failures continue to come..
CAT results came out today. The 28th of February, 2010. I got an overall
score of 96.54 percentile (Verbal - 99.96 percentile, Reasoning - 85.22
percentile, QA - 67.73 percentile). The overall score is better than I
quite frankly expected it to be, but that really doesn't count in the
least because with my QA marks, I won't get any calls at all. So CAT is a
no go at all.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
One of the best songs I've ever tuned in to..
“ Dishe-haara j mon, kiishe sharthok a jeebon,
khuje phiri kotha nebo thaai..
Chaaridiike shobai mor, keu bhaalo keu mondo khub,
aapon maan jeche shetha beraai..
CHORUS: Mon-a bhabna tobu, gheere royechhe shodai,
Etoh chaowa niiye kotha jaai..
Keu ba mathaay, keu piithe, aamar bolaay haath miithe –
diiye jay koto na baahobaai..
Kaaro shondeho oti, sheshe holo ei goti –
Gyalo ki biphol-a jeebon-tai…
CHORUS (x 2)
Paagol hoye j aami, daami holaam aaro daami,
Koto daam janina aamar chaai –
Nebe k kiine aamay, taate ki ba aashe jaay?
Themey jetey bhorosha na paai…
CHORUS (x 2)
Chhilo bondhu ek aamar, pelem hothath dekha taar,
bhoboghurey, chaala-chulo naai..
Tobu khushir haashi’r resh, thot-a hoyna j taar shesh –
ki taar daam shey koreni jachaai…
CHORUS (x 2)
Shono jodi kono diin, aami hothath bhabna-heen,
rakhini kothao mor thikaanai..
Jyeno khoja aamar shesh, taai holaam j niruddesh,
saathe korey shudhu rhidoy-taai…
Mon-a bhabna tobu, gheere royechhe shodai,
Etoh chaowa niiye kotha jaai…
Mon-a bhabna tobu, gheere royechhe shodai,
Etoh chaowa niiye kotha jaai… ”
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Best seats in the house..
7th February, 2010. 09:35 hours IST.
I am having a
fantastic morning. Absolutely splendid. Around half-an-hour earlier, my
mother and I heard this voice begin to in our gully and raced out to the
verandah to get a closer look. The owner of the voice turned out to be a
baul, clad in whites and an ektara cradled like a child in his arms. We
listened with rapt attention (and open-mouthed awe, I must hasten to
add) as he sang “Paakhi kyamne aashe jay..” (a song which, incidentally,
is a firm favourite of both my mother and myself) like no one has ever
sung it before, making every line, every word breathe. When he finished,
my mother requested him to grant us audience for another song. It was
“Tomaay rhid maajhare raakhibo..” next and, needless to say, this too
was beautifully sung. His voice had this unpolished quality and yet was
so perfectly melodious that we couldn’t help but hang on to his every
word.. My mother and I would have liked nothing more than sit him down
for the entire day and listen to him sing, but “A poor life this is full
of care, / We have no time to stand and stare..” and I had an
examination to sit for. So, we requested him for one final song, and out
he came with “Bhalobeshe aami bhikari holaam, tumi hole raani..". Those
who have had the pleasure of hearing this song earlier, know how
beautiful the lyrics are and this man did a most commendable job of
presenting it. We gave this man some money at the end, knowing full well
however that whatever we paid him, it would be a gross underpayment. We
requested him to visit our locality more often, to which he said that
he stepped out of his house on the outskirts of the city very early
every morning and went wherever it was that his feet took him, and it
was thus not possible for him to guarantee a return. But he did say that
like all artistes, he liked singing for people who appreciated his
talent and that he would like to come play and sing for us again
sometime.
It was a half-an-hour very, very well spent. I do hope to hear the man again.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
continuation of "other failures"
Didn't merit a call from XIMB either, just like I predicted. Still,
seeing the words "You have not been selected" in print is always tougher
than imagining them.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
A first-timer's experience
Pune is a visitor’s nightmare.
Right
from when you set foot in the city, either at the airport or at the
railway station, there are auto-wallahs waiting to rip you off. (Unless,
of course, you happen to know the Marathi language, in which case they
always charge you the actual rates.) For anyone who is planning to visit
Pune and is unfamiliar with the sights and sounds of the city, please
note that the auto rickshaws here mainly serve the purpose of taxis.
Accordingly, you have to ‘reserve’ an auto rickshaw for your journey and
cannot split the expenses with fellow-travelers headed the same way (as
is the case here in Kolkata). Further, each auto rickshaw has a meter
installed on the iron grid that separates the passenger seat and the
driver’s, and it surprisingly records not the amount traveled but the
kilometers traveled. How to figure out what actually needs to be paid,
you wonder? Well, each auto-wallah has a fare chart – he is required by
law to have one – wherein the kilometers vis-à-vis the cost incurred are
mentioned quite clearly. Of course, the said auto-wallah may offer
incredulous excuses of how he tragically lost the fare-chart or simply
refuse to show it to you, in which case you just need to multiply the
reading on the meter by 8 and then add 2. For example, if at the end of
your journey you find the meter reading to be 6, then (6x8) + 2 = 50
Rupees is what you need to pay. It’s the same anywhere in the city.
Now, in case you’re wondering how it is that an auto-wallah may refuse to show you his fare chart and get away with it, the raison d’être is that you won’t find any policeman to report him to! In fact, you’ll be hard-pressed to find policemen anywhere in the city! Wonder what they’re up to!
Also, in the city of Pune,
the concept of privately-owned buses is nonexistent. All buses that
ferry people from place to place are painted yellow-and-red and are all
run by the city government. The buses are thus quite crowded and
difficult to travel in, and the auto-wallahs are left reeling in the
cash.
Cutting
to the chase, unless you own a car of some sort, or at least a
two-wheeler, traveling around the city is a downright pain-in-the-ass.
Not to mention really expensive. But one thing I really liked was
that the number of women – young and middle-aged – that I spotted
piloting two-wheelers in my three-day stay in Pune was far more than the
number I’ve spotted in all my years in Kolkata put together.
For
regular and frequent smokers like me, there is the added disadvantage
that shops selling cigarettes are not really a dime a dozen. Far from
it, actually. And for Kolkattans in general, or at least those of us who
love street-side food, the sad fact is that there aren’t any small
shacks selling finger-lickin’ food (at affordable prices) lining the
Pune roads; what can be found instead are large restaurants and other
such eateries that do serve good food but cost way too much.
‘To sum it up’, as I said in the Group Discussion where I barely spoke, the city of Pune
isn’t really a dream destination by any stretch of the imagination. I
had to visit because I had work to attend to. I wouldn’t advise anyone
else to drop in unless he/she absolutely has to. I’m back home now and I really don’t want to go back there.
(Or, maybe I will. If I manage to gain admission into a particular institute situated
atop
a hill. If I do gain admission there, perhaps the pleasurable company
of a particular member of the opposite sex will outweigh the displeasure
of living in Pune in the first place.)
p.s.
For people who do not know who it is that I talk about above, please
keep your noses (and your guess-work) out of my personal business. I am a
rather insignificant person, and surely you have better things to do.
Thank you.
She made a memory..
I
met a girl on the train from Pune to Kolkata. Wearing a simple red sari
and a black blouse, she was selling guavas from a wicker basket and had
sat down on the edge of the seat adjacent to mine for a moment’s rest.
We got to talking after I bought the last two of her guavas. She said
she was from Chhattisgarh. She also said that she bought her fruits at
six in the morning and caught the eight o’ clock train, before which she
cooked food for her elder brother (who worked in the fields as a
landless labourer) and her mother (who was often ill, but could not get
treated because of the lack of funds). Mansi, as this girl was called,
often didn’t get time to have breakfast and ate a meagre lunch at
mid-day (consisting of dry rotis and a nondescript curry) when she got
down at a station to change trains. Mansi sold different fruits
depending on the season and she said that cucumbers were the most
profitable during the parched summer months. She sometimes got pulled up
by the TTEs for traveling ticket-less and in such situations, she was
forced to part with all her earnings just in order to avoid being
disallowed from continuing her trade. When she finished her daily
routine at seven in the evening, she went home and prepared food for all
three family members. (Her father didn’t live with them anymore.)
Mansi
is just 19. She had studied till class ten in a Hindi-medium school,
after which her father went his separate way and she was compelled to
start working. She has no holidays, she watches no movies, she has no
time to socialize with friends. She has already had malaria and typhoid,
and yet her indomitable spirit has lived on to tell her tale. When I
asked her what it was that kept her going day-in and day-out despite
such odds, she said that it was the thought of going back home and
having at least one home-made meal every day.
Mansi’s sun-burnt face had a simple, rustic charm and a withdrawn beauty and I sincerely hope that poverty doesn’t force my newfound friend into deeds beneath her dignity, as happens to so many such poor village girls. I tried to give her a hundred rupee note, but only after I concocted a story about Friendship Day being a few days away (and that the money was a gift from one friend to another), did she reluctantly accept it. I also wanted to click a picture of her but she was too shy to let me.
When she got off the train at Raipur, Mansi bid me a safe journey, saying that I was a very nice person and that it felt nice to be able to share her story. I wished her all the very best in life and hoped that we would meet again someday, only she would be far better off and not be hawking fruits on a train then.
Mansi’s sun-burnt face had a simple, rustic charm and a withdrawn beauty and I sincerely hope that poverty doesn’t force my newfound friend into deeds beneath her dignity, as happens to so many such poor village girls. I tried to give her a hundred rupee note, but only after I concocted a story about Friendship Day being a few days away (and that the money was a gift from one friend to another), did she reluctantly accept it. I also wanted to click a picture of her but she was too shy to let me.
When she got off the train at Raipur, Mansi bid me a safe journey, saying that I was a very nice person and that it felt nice to be able to share her story. I wished her all the very best in life and hoped that we would meet again someday, only she would be far better off and not be hawking fruits on a train then.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Perhaps all
shops that stock women's inner wear should employ saleswomen to assist
their clientele. I was at this shop yesterday, hunting for a pair of
formal trousers, when this woman walked in. The battle going on inside
her was evident from her secretive glances at the ladies items' counter
and the man seated behind it. It took her quite a lot of time to come up
with the item that she was looking for, and I could see the hesitation
(and perhaps unwillingness) with which she gave the man her sizes.
Unfortunately, this shop that I'm talking about didn't encompass a lot
of floor-space and I could hear every word that passed between the poor
woman and the salesman from where I had been standing (at the gents'
counter, browsing through five-odd pairs of trousers, trying to pick
one). I didn't really want to hear the rest of the woman's pained
conversation until the transaction was completed, and I therefore left,
but I must say I did notice the expression on her face. Pity was the
emotion that I felt for her, and I sincerely hope that she doesn't have
to go through such an experience ever again.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
22.. And counting...
Had a wonderful day. And I mean, really
wonderful. A big "thank you" to everyone who made the 12th of January,
2010, such a memorable day. This blog post is dedicated to all
you people.. Anchal, for being the first to wish me on the phone..
Polo, Deepsova, Debashree (my sincerest apologies if I've got the
spellings wrong), Malvika, Rini, Sudeshna and Aritree for throwing
caution to the winds and wasting precious money by calling me up at STD
rates! Rachna di, for the really unexpected SMS (I hadn't expected you
to remember).. Anchal and Jhhata, for one of the most delicious cakes
I've ever had a slice of.. Dipendra and Nilanjana, for the two wonderful
cards (and NOT for the other gift!!).. Sumit and Ritankar, for the sexy
wallet.. (Black is such an alluring colour!) Mayank, for the very
stylish t-shirt, even though I generally would rather wear something
less flashy.. And, to another person, for making the end of my birthday a
really memorable one.. Thank you all. Thank you so much...
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